it's so hard

to keep my head above water,

with all these sharks circling.

but lately all i want to do,

is drift off into some sort

of man made lake

on a not-so-steady raft

just to see

how far away i can get 

before i miss everyone.

and other days all i want

is to curl up into a ball

and sit 

under my desk for hours and hours 

until my roommates come home

and i get embarrassed and tell them 

that i dropped a quarter

or a paper clip

or whatever pops into my head first.

and other days,

i'm just looking for escape 

in a bright blue sky.