optimism is the best happiness i know.

and i have it.
it's been a while.
i may still be confused
and i may still be a fucked up kid [but who isn't]
even our parents and peers have their problems
but i have happiness.
i know that i am able to givelove and havelove and beloved.
whether it's you or not, i'm happy.
i promise.
and i have no regrets.
and i love you.
and i love you.
and i love you.
and even if there's nothing more for us beyond this moment.
i still have this moment.
and even if there's nothing more for me beyond today,
i still have today.
and even if this breath turns out to be my last,
i still have my lungs.
and even if my heart is broken,
it will still beat.
and my optimism will always outweigh my brokenness.
that is my promise.
and my cliche'd words will still ring true.
and i still have my god
and i still have my heart
and i still have my breath
and i still have today.
and in my heart i still have hope.